As of last week, on the 20th to be exact, I have officially been at my new job for a month. Not that I noticed. A friend had to point it out to me because truthfully, these last few weeks have a been a huge blur. Adjusting to a new position, settling in with new coworkers, and learning as much as possible. I've had really frustrating days (I hate not knowing things!) and other really satisfying ones when I felt like I knew exactly what I was doing. Being the new girl is hard! But I can already see a future here where I'm going to grow a lot professionally and be pushed outside of my comfort zone. I think I need that. So even though I'm grumbling a bit about this newbie period, I know I made the right choice in pursuing and accepting this job.
Still, it's hard not to have moments where I doubt myself. I was doing it a bit on and off these last few weeks. Like I'd be lying in bed looking back on my day and thinking -- what exactly am I doing with my life?! And it's not like I'm not busy. I have a full-time job, hobbies I'm passionate about (see: this blog and my love of books), family and friends I make time for, responsibilities, my apartment. If anything, it feels like there aren't enough hours in the day to do all that I want. I'm content! Happy even. But there's this part of me that wants to do more, except I don't know what more is yet. Well I can think of a couple things - travel more, go to concerts more, bake more, read more (yes, I did just say that). It's funny because I was always that person who felt wary of change and now I find I can't get enough of it.
Anyway, this was not what I originally planned to write (I think I was subconsciously inspired by Emma's post on A Beautiful Mess). But I did want to share a few things that have put a smile on my face recently:
#1 Peaceful moments at home I love opening up the windows, especially when it's sunny and there's a bit of a breeze. |
#2 Finding a new brunch spot Red Eye Cafe in Montclair, NJ! Awesome coffee too. |
#3 Great shopping finds! Super cute bag on sale for $13. So much for my bag ban! |
#4 Chocolate & wine. Enough said. Godiva truffles are absolutely worth it. |
#5 Cooking My newest favorite site for recipes - Yummly! Recently made: sesame chicken, pasta bake, pork & string bean stir fry. |
#6 Movie nights
Saw That Awkward Moment w/ Estelle & Alexa; Endless Love w/ Loren. Both good! |
What makes you happy these days?
I love your curtains and the frame that's peeking out. Godiva truffles are so worth it since they're soooo good. I know what you mean about wanting change because I, too, am someone who loves consistency. Maybe it's because it's spring and there's always a feeling of starting anew? I'm looking forward to warmer weather, for sure!
ReplyDeleteChange is scary! I've been at my current job for almost 5 years, but even though I don't see it as my career, it's hard to think of leaving it for anything else. I love a challenge, but that newbie stage you're going through can be so intimidating. Kudos to you for being brave enough - here's hoping I find my courage, too! Haha
ReplyDeleteNew things are always scary + intimidating at first, but as you've also mentioned, it's also a challenge to improve, become even better at what you do and learn new things along the way. I can't believe it's been almost a month since you started your new job! But I'm seriously happy that you've found a new place to flourish, and excited to see what awaits you there.
ReplyDeleteAlso, your six happy things made me happy too. Particularly the brunch photo. I seriously just want to have brunch there now, which I guess means that I should visit you at home REAL SOON.