thanksgiving weekend thoughts

One of my favorite things about Thanksgiving is knowing that I'll have a long four day weekend away from work. I really miss the days of summer vacations and month-long winter breaks but I'll take what I can get. And I always look forward to this.  Thanksgiving was at my house this year and I actually contributed to the food! Usually I just bake cupcakes (red velvet, to be precise) but this time, I got a special request to make a green bean casserole.  Which I've never had before but thanks to Paula Deen's recipe, my casserole was a hit! It was really nice having everyone over. Even though my family is super close and everyone lives nearby, it's still rare when we all can get together for dinner at the same time. Especially as us cousins get older, we get busy and sometimes want to make different plans. It makes me appreciate the time we do spend together.  Like the holidays. I want to plan more things with them - movie nights or dinners. Actually, it's not even just my cousins.  There's something about this time of the year that makes me want to see everyone - family and friends - more than I usually do. I also think it makes me want to hibernate more. And by hibernate I mean sleep, crawl into bed with a good book and wake up whenever I want. Which I did a lot of during these last four days. Minus Black Friday when my cousin Jannique and I decided to wake up at 5am to go to the mall.  So worth it though! I'm almost done with all my Christmas shopping (yay!).

I just keep thinking it's going to be December in five days. FIVE DAYS. When did that happen? It just flew by. And I say that every year but I'm afraid of next year. And no, not because I think the world is going to end (which my younger cousin likes to bring up). But because it's the year I turn thirty. That's a.. big number. I don't feel like I'm thirty but when I think about that age, I get this slight wave of panic. Suddenly I'm trying to get all the things I've been meaning to do the last few years into motion. Which is exciting and long-overdue but a little scary too. Change always is. But I'm mostly excited. I know I'm being vague with these future plans but when I'm ready (and if they finally happen), the details will be here. 

Anyway, I wasn't expecting to write this whole introspective entry but I've had a lot on my mind and for the first time in a while, I felt like writing here. Not just about books or music but about me.  I was reading my old entries from a few years ago on a different blog I had and I really wrote about my every day thoughts. It made me miss expressing that kind of honesty in writing. Maybe this will be the start of more entries like this. 

How was your Thanksgiving?