monday morning thoughts

October is the first month in a while that's been really calm for me. No major plans, no weddings. It's just been random plans here and there and my own thoughts keeping me up at night.  

Yoga. I didn't think I'd be one of those people who would get into yoga.  I'm not flexible, my balance sucks (my years of ballet did not pay off) and I'll be honest, I don't really exercise all that often.  I tried Zumba a few times which was fun but I didn't fall in love with it.  But after two yoga classes, I'm definitely hooked.  It's actually a lot harder than it looks.  There's a lot of strength involved, learning how to take deep breaths and figuring out the poses.  But it's worth the effort.  My body feels so loose and relaxed afterwards and then achy the next day (but in a good way!). 

Books books books. I upped my challenge again, now the goal is 130 for the year. I'm thinking that every time I get close and if I still have a time, I'll just keep raising it.  I know I could just finish and be done with it but I want to know how far I can push myself.  I've been juggling the books I buy, the ones given to me, the ones from the library, BEA and now NetGalley.  Sometimes I stop and think to myself: how did I go from reading a lot to reading this much and writing reviews all the time?  I never imagined my blog turning out the way it did and there are moments lately where I get lazy to review.  But deep down, I'm happy that I've found this outlet to write and share my love of books. 

Work. It was my 7 year anniversary at work recently.  It's funny, the coworkers who knew were all congratulating me but Estelle said something that was closer to how I really felt.  She said, "I'm sorry." Which made me laugh but it was so true. I mean, I know I can't complain too much. I have a steady job, steady income, my work is well-respected but I wonder all the time - is this it for me? I saw myself being in a much different place. I wish I didn't care or think about where I work and who I work with, but I do. More than I care to admit. 

And so things end on a positive note: I learned "Sweater Song" by Weezer on the ukulele recently. Had a long talk with my younger cousin which gave me this great, I feel like a big sister, feeling. Started wearing heels again (silly but it's nice to be over 5" every once in a while!).  Happy that all my favorite shows are back -- The Walking Dead, The Vampire Diaries, Revenge, Fringe, Once Upon A Time. 

I'm all about the good thoughts this morning. No Monday blues for me (yet).